Last night as I was lying in bed, all these words started moving through me, words I want to put in a letter but haven’t. As I felt them wash over me, I wanted you here so I could turn and tell you what was in my heart.
It wasn’t love at first site, just a look a glance that made me wonder about you and made me want to know more. As I heard your words its as if they spoke to someplace deep inside me and I felt like I heard the words unsaid as well. I liked you immediately, thinking “what a nice guy,” and that was it. But, I kept coming back as I wanted to know more. I was impressed by your convictions, swept away by your enthusiasm and warmed by your kindness. One day I realized you were in my thoughts every moment and I was filled with a comfort and safety I couldn’t explain. It was then I realized I loved you, a love I had never experienced before, one that made me feel as if I’d known you through the ages.
Perhaps these are foolish thoughts to others, but I knew at that moment there would be nothing like it with anyone else. It was then I felt you walking with me and your warmth come to me from the shadows, taking my breath away. It’s amazing the bond I have with you, one that takes me to you and sometimes brings you to me. I’ll never be able to capture it in words this bond we have, but now I realize there is such a thing as walking in parallel lives and those things I have seen and felt with you were not flights of fancy. I have been on that porch in the big chair lying in your arms. I have walked through the gardens and laughed with you in the moonlight. I have heard you heartbeat, the rhythm of life, as I was folded in your arms.
I know as I write this, there are those who will walk away thinking I’ve lost it or that I’m well on my way. It doesn’t matter as long as you know I love you, this man I found deep inside, your spirit wrapping around mine and holding me close.